I was the girl who was always smiling, behind the smile I was constantly comparing myself to others. I couldn’t tell people no or accept myself; I became depressed.
So, when did this change? I accepted the voices I was hearing from within.
This lifestyle was OK for my ego, but it was far from what my heart desired. I struggled with my emotions, coped with self-harming; as I lay suffering in my bed one day, I thought “How should I end my life?
The voice within stopped me and that was the moment I released that it was not my voice. It’s my inner guidance. I call her Mother Nature. I had further ups and downs so I went to Nepal to do voluntary work following a recent earthquake; they needed support.
After that life changing experience, I couldn’t settle down in the Netherlands again. I tried but became depressed & was completely lost again. I couldn’t cope anymore so grabbed my backpack and started walking the Chemin Saint Jacques in France. I didn’t know what I was doing. The only thing I knew was that I had to walk, eat and sleep…Oh yes…and pamper my feet!
This 1600km helped me to love myself again. I had to take care of myself otherwise my body couldn’t move. I pushed myself to the maximum daily so I had somewhere to sleep that night!
Every minute I was so proud of myself. I built so much respect for my body, its capability to heal. What a miracle the human body is. I started loving me. It made me realize that being a human being is enough. I discovered how much of a miracle Mother Nature truly is. Everything in nature is life and living in the moment, just like the human body. I wanted to start spreading the vision with my pen. Through words with inner guidance from Mother Nature, I discovered my art of light again… I am a writer.
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